@sonatine
met up with the old friend i talked about on here a few days ago today. for some reason i was expecting to get some closure from everything that happened during our friendship, but i don’t really feel that different now. i think it just shows that it’s been so long that i’ve already made my peace with it independently! however, it was nice catching up with her but it also definitely showed that we’ve grown up to be wildly different; we always were kind of surprising friends but now our differences were really obvious. i just wish that we would’ve talked much earlier; i’m ok now, but if we had talked, say, five to three years ago these past years would’ve been much easier for me and i feel like i could have been much more forgiving with myself and started to connect with new people more easily
