-i’m telling myself heavy with this but i recently got a whole sheet and pillow but whats crazy is that im so touch starved in order for me to go to sleep i have to hold the pillow instead of using normally😭😭 it might be too late for me tbh💀
-this weekend was good to me tho besides the new sheet set i went to therapy, went to an ice cream festival downtown, and just came back from a car show. although a previous situationship that ghosted me hit me up on thursday which pissed me the fuck off so i did indeed block her otherwise a good weekend
For this #thoughtfulthursday I feel like being introspective
Although it has always never been extremely hard for me to make friends or at least get into talking stages I feel like that I’m missing a key component to human interaction itself that would actually make me able to keep those relationships. I would like to think I’m a good friend or that I’m lovable but without fail so far any friends I’ve made (irl) or relationships I want develop either just completely fall off or slowly dissipate. It’s hasn’t so often that the only conclusion I can come to is that there’s something wrong with me but I have no clue what it is. I have spent countless nights trying to figure out what it is but I’ve been clueless for years
-i’ve been listening to absolute 10/10 songs recently and this is one of them fr
-im afraid i might be developing a new crush😭some random girl added me on airbuds so i followed her on insta and damn she is fine af i think i’ll test the waters by posting me a selfie or something to my story and see if she feeling me
-yall when i say my fits have been dastardly fashionable im not lying i need to post them more often
So I got a new team leader cuz my old one quit (not because of me I hope😭) and we’ve already made more progress in the last couple days then I did in a few weeks with the last guy and I’m super happy about that😁 I finally feel like I’m making progress with this job now in no time I’ll be running my own company😤
So I just posted a clothing haul of what I got shopping in STL on insta if anyone was curious. Safe to say my style is fucking elite😤 anyways I peeped the damage of all the money I spent on the trip and thankfully it wasn’t nearly as bad as I was expecting so I’m gone cop a couple tickets to IDK In October!! Not very energetic about it being Tuesday but not much I can do about it lol
A bit of a rant but I was talking with my older brother yesterday and he said that the reason why I don’t have any friends/gf is cuz I don’t like to drink or smoke. I love big bruh but that’s just some BULLSHIT!!
Aight y’all it’s time to do some musical confessions or some music takes that you are not proud of😢 imma start off with some blasphemy:
The date is April 20th and I still haven’t listened to 100% of S.O.S😱😱 I’m like 90% sure ive heard all the songs but I stopped with like 3 or 4 tracks left😞 y’all can try but I don’t think it’s gets much worse than that😭
I haven’t seen My least favorite supervisor for a past few days and I’m really enjoying this time😆 hopefully he’s doing okay cuz he is like my dads age if not a little older but I also hope he continues with his sabbatical until I quit lmao
For those of you care I’m heavily leaning towards getting the AJ4 lightnings but I’ll make my final decision tomorrow morning👟
My experience last night made me lose a lot of optimism for this year that I’m not in the headspace to recuperate yet. Kinda hard to believe 2023 will be my year when the previous 19 haven’t been but I’m not gonna throw out the whole year just because of one day. I’ll recover the optimism eventually just not today.
I feel like it’s pretty much my brand now to go on hiatuses for whatever reason😭😭 but I’m actually back now with a somewhat okay mental state but I have been listening to a lot of clairo and phoebe bridgers which says a lot💀💀 kinda wish I had more to say but I’m honestly glad I’m back so soon I was thinking like a month but ain’t no way imma leave y’all hanging for that long💖
