@camelia
@camelia
feeling under the weather 🤧🤒 ffs my throat is uncomfortable 😭 hope it’s not cobid. yesterday was my last day and it was pretty fun. we had korean chicken for lunch. took pictures and made tiktok videos with my colleague. will definitely miss the team and the memories there. 🫶🏻
@camelia
it used to be painful to miss someone you’re no longer in contact with. but now, i just miss you for the sake of missing you and hope you’re doing well. although it hurts, i hope you find someone who is the person you need. the realisation hit me yesterday night, that i could just be a placeholder. the girl that was there for the guy’s character development before he got into an actual relationship. the relationship that he was never ready for with me. why is it that, the people that traumatised us could live happily now while we’re still struggling all alone with no hope for anything anymore? they traumatised us, played the victim yet they still got the good ending? i hate self-pity but it’s so frickin unfair sometimes
@camelia
down with fever, clogged nose, and coughs 😷🤒
@camelia
God, please ease everything for us. ❤️🩹
@camelia
so much happiness - is it okay to be this happy, i wonder? 🤍
@camelia
another keshi, another bop 🤍
@camelia
good night errone 🌟
@camelia
i’m sick of my brain and myself. i want to be unalive.
@camelia
feeling much better from my fever. spent all day playing games and watching youtube. i feel very much accomplished after grinding so much. kind of lied to my friend about not noticing his message last night. but really, am not in a mood to talk to anyone. i just want to be alone. just… i’m so exhausted of being the therapist. i can only carry so much. i don’t want to care anymore.
@camelia
finally managed to cleaned my space and changed to fresh new sheets. i should be folding my laundry too but too tired for that atm. lately been feeling okay too- focusing on the good has been working. also my friend got me free tix to go see lany which i didn’t expect to get to go even and for free to boot. anyways, here are some things that i do for a boost of serotonin 1. listen to upbeat songs (of course) 2. watch some anime & read manga 3. watch my fave vtubers from nijisanji 4. play games (i say games but i’m only doing my commissions in genshin bcs i wanna be fully immerse on the other games when i have time like nier automata etc) 5. i wanna say read books but i’ve been holding off that too bcs again i wanna be fully immersed in it when i’m really free looking forward to spend time with friends on sunday hehe 3 more weeks of internship to goooo yeeee
@camelia
last day of internship lesgoooo inside the train typing this omg the morning rush hour is annoying istg
@camelia
just being stupidly in love right now 🥰 very grateful.
