today was horrible i am sick after one day of college. my schedule was jam packed i have switch my class schedule at least 6 times today and chem workload is insane.
i almost started crying over not being able to find who my TA was. and then i couldn’t figure out how to convert my file into a PDF. i still don’t know. i already have late work and it’s the first day i have to wake up at 5AM and i can’t breathe through one nostril. i usually don’t realise it’s a bad day until after the day but that was a fucking bad day
halloween is sooo close i’m so excited. i’m one of those bitches who loves dressing up so i live for this holiday.
i’m prepping a spider gwen costume 🤓
i’m about to lose my mind if i continue to not be able to sleep through the night this is like the second day i’ve woken up at and insane time. WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS ITS FUCKING HPRRIBLE.
blood orange summer!!! i passed my exams, got mostly As this sem (BC in chem BUT IDCCC)
unprivated my finsta for the day so my good friend aurora could repost my funny but my opp that i have blocked on everything fucking went on her moms instagram to stalk me. how do i know this? she accidentally liked one of my posts and has previously viewed my insta on her moms instagram before. just such a weird thing to do
the way i can’t look new people in the eyes is so embarrassing 😭
reaching max femcel levels. i barley go outside unless i need to. and all i do is watch romcoms in my messy room.
transferring is so stressful bruh 😭😭😭
i have to make sure my classes transfer over and i’m pretty sure 3 of them don’t putting me at 16/25 credits. but my spring classes should make up for that. which i’m trying to make sure those all transfer over. i need to email my old professor again for a letter of rec (idk if he remembers me bc it was from fall 22). i have to recover my high school transcripts but my old advisor moved schools. i have to MAKE SURE my ACT score isn’t on there. i don’t think i’ve told anyone my real ACT score. like why would i tell you. just bc i mentally cannot focus for 4 hours straight with no light doesn’t mean im stupid.
but yeah that’s all due by oct 1st…i’ll be fine but im worried bc i have major procrastinating and confrontation (w higher authority) issues. at least i’ll find better people at this new college. my GPA was a 3.9 if they don’t let me in i’ll get physical with admissions (off record)
today i’m going to complain. bc as nice as my roommate and her bf are i am so annoyed. we live in a two person dorm. you don’t need to have your boyfriend over everyday. GO SLEEP IN YOUR OWN BED. GO FUCKING HOME. and don’t get me started with trying to sleep with this bright ass LEDs on. i’m like genuinely at my last straw. how is she not self aware??? even if i’m “fine with it” i feel like after a certain time it’s common courtesy after a certain time that this shit is annoying. if i had my bf or friend over for two days i’d feel bad that i’d be intruding on their space. not to mention the LEDs again i would be like is this bothering you? i have made it clear that i don’t like sleeping with bright lights so bitch that means your fucking LEDs too. i don’t want someone in the dorm 24/7. and my sleep has been horrible bc her stupid LED lights being constantly on like seriously. im about to do some crazy shit. “chill roommate” until i go fucking insane. GO FUCKING HOME.
i keep WAKING UP and forgetting everything i’m stressed about for 30 seconds and that 30 seconds after i wake up is always so euphoric.
i think i’m gonna train for calisthenics as well as regular weight training. i just need to get off my ass and go back to the gym 😭
met my roommate today and she’s actually not bad at all. she’s like so sweet😭
i feel bad i’m not gonna be there this weekend bc i have stuff to do over the weekend but hopefully we can connect and she can help me make more friends lmao.
ugh i feel bad i’m trying to move for my spring semester
