@ellieshamlian
hate when i say i’m worried i’m gonna die alone and whoever i’m talking to is like “noooo you have so many ppl who love you” that is NOT my point!!! obviously i am beloved and cool and sexy and funny and humble so i’m not gonna die alone alone but they know what i mean!!!!
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@ellieshamlian
just for a tmi update on my night i woke up with my underwear mysteriously gone. talked to my friends mom when i woke up and apparently that was because i peed myself, plus I threw up and fell multiple times (one time i took my friend down with me). this is a real low point in the life of ellieshamlian (not to mention they apparently watched me sleep for a bit to make sure i was breathing) i feel like a bad person this is the worst i want to die i need to not do shots anymore but i did get a funny voicemail from my friend when she lost me (i was throwing up in the street) while she was with this guy and she said to him “i’m not kissing you again until i find my friend!!” so friendship goals i suppose? this is so humiliating i suck i need to stop drinking to mask my insecurities at the bar
@ellieshamlian
THIS IS FUNNY PLZ DONT PITY US when me and tori (twin if u didn’t know) were really young, we went to the doctor and they gave her a shot. when she got it, i cried. flash forward and we had twin anxiety attacks today, which i genuinely think is really cute in a messed up skins uk type of way <3 in brighter news the big teddy bear guy at pilates called me angel today, which instantaneously cured all my harry-related issues! and my friend was emptying her bag and takes out a pack of camels and goes “oh sorry, polish cigarettes” EXCUSE ME?? seventh grade me would’ve been holding my breath whenever she got near me (i was utterly unwell… as opposed to now when i am the picture of stability!) but today i did not bat an eyelash! and i’m entering my loving green era which is fun bc i used to be scared of it (color of weed). despite my fear of most drugs i need to do shrooms desperately and asap as i think it would make me unstoppable! enlightened ellie era?
@7dizzydayz
should I stay up and clean my room or get a good night rest and try again tomorrow? lol
@musicjournal
i wanna fall in love again
@ellieshamlian
hypothetical question if over the wknd a man points out that you don’t have a drink and says “we need to fix that” (and was gonna buy you one until your friend sadly showed up with a drink for you) and you tell him to befriend your sister (long story but it makes sense if you’re me) and he then goes out of his way to find her post-wknd just to tell her that he saw you and was happy to hear you’re excited for law school even though they are not friends… is it wrong to think that’s not strictly platonic?? i never anticipate anything beyond platonicness but am told that this may be beyond the call of friendship (also it’s crazy i saw him this weekend bc i was randomly at a w place i’ve never been to out of the way from us both)
@drewbaltz
