#mymusicportrait ๐น๐ ๐ธ๐ฎ๐ป๐บ๐ฎ๐ป
ugh i almost donโt want to post this cuz itโs too embarrassing but luckily thereโs no real photos of it. anyways my fit for my first ever day of highschool was completely ridiculous๐: a t-shirt w/ Baby Carlos from The (og) Hangover movie on it, those white 2000s plaid shorts, black nike socks n black vans [a pic has been provided for more clarity]. You have to understand tho, all these things were popular at the time ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐๐๐ ok maybe not the t-shirt but Hangover as a movie was. It was still 2010 so dressing well as a teen was not rlly part of the zeitgeist yet; peak fashion was still like, Juicy Couture tracksuits n Ed Hardy tees. Anyways, i remember planning this outfit SPECIFICALLY to stand out. Not only as funny, but also to make me seem fun n chill [insert โiโm just a chill guyโ meme]. Which, it DID ๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ข work, & i got some compliments. Mostly laughs n stares tho, but hey any publicity is still good publicity ๐๐ธ
#mymusicportrait ๐๐๐ฟ๐ผ๐๐ฟ๐ถ๐ฝ ๐
Our last day of the trip + last day in Ireland was spent with a boat ride round a loch, and also riding a horse cairrage over a mountain pass so overall it made for a pretty epic closer. We also did some last minute gift shopping, where I bought my then girlfriend Stephanie a claddagh ring ๐ (iykyk) but unfortunately iโd never give it to her (iโll explain why later ๐tho u can probably guess). then we also got to stay up all night partying in the hotel rooms bcuz our flight left at like 4am. It was a fun time. I remember on the way to the airport too in the morning my trip buddy Becca peed her pants bcuz there was no bathroom on the bus and she didnโt wanna make it stop ๐ตโ๐ซ๐งป like i said, exciting trip
when weโre going niche 4 niche and i pull out the indonesian irish-punk band The Cloves and The Tabacco ๐ฎ๐ฉ๐ค๐ฎ๐ช
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(thatโs indonesia, irish-punk; not indonesian-irish punks. they are indonesian and based out of Yogyakarta but play in irish folk-punk style)
#mymusicportrait ๐ฏ๐ฎ๐น๐น๐ ๐น๐ผ๐น
does anyone else vividly remember where they were the first time they heard this song? itโs my 9/11 iโll never forget it. we were at a hobby shop with my brother, dad, and cousin (my brother was rlly into model trains) and it was pouring rain so we were rashing to get into the car and as soon as we started it this song came on the radio 1077.7 the bone and we thought it was funniest thing ever (we were all like, 5th grade boys atp), We all still talk about it sometimes lol
๐๐ฎ๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง๐ฌ ๐๐จ๐ซ ๐ ๐๐๐ซ ๐๐ซ๐๐ฌ๐ก แดแด2
TW// I wondered if Deathโs weight was hovering atop my foot like a boot upon the shovel. My tires my spade; a plow upon the tarmac; my brain into the windshield.
But I knew it was all just limerence. Macabre phantoms of somebody elseโs hardest day. The kind of awful days that first responders cannot talk about with families.
Why did i even want such mangled things for me anyway? My body crumpled up just like my dreams โa leaking origami smashed in angry hands of metal.
And which poor soul should have to identify my body? What right did i have to inflict such scars upon their eyes?
As much I could hope of reaping freedom my splintered bones, & blossoming with blood & oil slicks, the truth is Iโd probably feel nothing.
Only impact & obliteration.
A life soaked up with kitty litter. Another cross lit up for passersby. And so i simply drove on & cried, trying not to think of answers for the questions i had about a car crash..
idk if Iโm super late to this โcause it came out in 2018 but this album is full of SO many bangers. Had it on repeat the last few days, definitely recommend for some good pop-rock ๐
Anyways, hope your day is filled with amazing vibes โ๏ธ
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โฆAnd suddenly one night there was no more Moon. She lay still and groaning. Her flesh now turned to muted colors, dying, far out beyond the closed doors of the horizon. Like a candle, pale blue, & snuffed out for the comfort of someone elseโs sleep; her fire spent & extinguished. A wick rubbed down till only burrs & ash were left.
In a place where no one saw nor heard her whimper, she was drowned beneath the weight of the Night Sky. All light pressed out of her chest as he whispered to her โBe quietโ. For though silent & unseen, the Night hath teeth which can still split the body open without bleeding.
And so the Sun was forced to rise alone that day, unaware of what befell his fellow muse. And the lewd Night closed, dragging behind himself a secret that he hoped would dieโฆ
โปโโโ*.ยท:ยท.โฝโง ย ย โฆ ย ย โงโพ.ยท:ยท.* โโโโบ
แฃ โฐ ๐๐๐๐ โฐ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐โฐแ๐๐โ๐ - ๐๐๐ แโฐ
โปโโโโโ โโฉโ โโโโโโบ
Tho song perf for a slow Sunday to work off a hangover. Also, itโs turns out Iโm ok at golf AND ping pong แ(โฬฟฤบฬฏโฬฟ ฬฟ)แ
btw hereโs some photos from my family vacation earlier this month that i didnโt get to share. It was an interesting trip for sure but what family vacay isnโt. Full of cute lil mountain towns tho! Real oneโs saw the video edit of it that i posted on instagram already but yea. wish i could post videos here. and yes, i got the little keychains
went to the dentist & got my teeth cleaned ๐ฆท ๐ชฅ told me not to eat for 30min so i edged myself by cooking this amazing bacon+ham+cheese bagel w/ dijon & caramelized onions ๐ซฆ#bust ๐ฆ sometimes my big-backery impresses myself.
while i waited to eat it tho, it got me thinking about how sumtimes when things are so good we canโt let ourselves have them bcuz of our wounds (like inner, emotional wounds). we know whatโs in front us is what we want, but we feel like we must heal more bcuz weโre scared how good it is might hurt us if it all goes wrong. like the temptation is SO good it scares us.
Rn i feel like me & a friend are in that situation. That things could be much better if they just indulged themselves. And itโs kinda frustrating, cuz i wish theyโd just lean into it but at the same time I get it because i myself am also in that situation. Itโs silly tho to call in what we desire & then not let ourselves enjoy it tho out of selfdoubt. For loveโs sake, i hope we both come forward.
not a song but a ๐๐พ๐ท๐ for the summer ๐โ๏ธ๐ค๏ธ๐think japanese-punk-rock-harajuku-rokkonrลru-zoku-tough-bitch-but-also-cute-n-bubbly energy #heatwavespiritweek
