LOL its been so long. phone got stolen n had a whole ordeal. was lowkey freeing, but i'm back to going too hard at parties and having 3 day hangxiety after. you'd think one would grow after a month a half. anyway couldnt sleep last night. still heartbroken apparently which is genuinely impressive. i think the realisation hit me again that even though the initial ending was out of my control, maybe i pushed her further away after because i didn't know how to react. but what can you do other than move forward? if a birthday text is all it is right now that's okay. tryna make my music feel more neutral and less attached to people, so went to this album today. n even though this song reminds me of her, and early june, the transition from perfect into me & you has me GAGGEDDDD. so hopefully life is looking up. don't think that made sense but then nothing is making sense rn so. happy mercury in retrograde ig. onwards and upwards.