LOL its been so long. phone got stolen n had a whole ordeal. was lowkey freeing, but i'm back to going too hard at parties and having 3 day hangxiety after. you'd think one would grow after a month a half. anyway couldnt sleep last night. still heartbroken apparently which is genuinely impressive. i think the realisation hit me again that even though the initial ending was out of my control, maybe i pushed her further away after because i didn't know how to react. but what can you do other than move forward? if a birthday text is all it is right now that's okay. tryna make my music feel more neutral and less attached to people, so went to this album today. n even though this song reminds me of her, and early june, the transition from perfect into me & you has me GAGGEDDDD. so hopefully life is looking up. don't think that made sense but then nothing is making sense rn so. happy mercury in retrograde ig. onwards and upwards.
me & you by sosocamo & SoFaygo · big country
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there’s a dot-to-dot of moles i never knew were there until you kissed my back. i’m ill. maybe we found each other in every life. maybe the next one is where we’ll find each other forever. but for now i wonder where i am in my relationship to you. stuck in your atmosphere but if i saw you i don’t know what i’d do.
i walk each day as if it’s the one in which we left each other’s arms, while my mind’s simultaneously racing back towards her. ‘there’s no changing my mind i won’t walk the stairs with you tonight going nowhere the clock moved a quarter of a turn the time it took a cigarette to burn she said you got a lot of things to learn going nowhere’
hey guys ! still here and still not moved on ! 🤣🤣😐 i am losing my shit. nothing is helping, saw my friends and wanted to cry, want to create but have no inspiration. need to go to the gym but gotta wait 5 days to get my membership. i’ve written so much in my notes app but there’s a very fine line right now between processing and just wallowing in what could have been. i will come back from this. i actually have to. she defo already has. or if she hasn’t then she’s sure well good at hiding it. i’d like to be able to take a full breath soon if that’s okay. anyway the interlude between this song and ‘somebody else’ on the live album is heavenly and exactly the type of neutral torment i’m feeling constantly at the moment. living in a dreamstate.
been seeing both sides of bad relationships like i’m sat between two speakers blasting separate music into my ears recently. it sucks that we met still carrying the mental consequences of unwanted toxic situations. but still i’m stuck reliving the beauty and peace that once was before trauma caught up. ‘i don’t speak unless i’m spoken to and i won’t smoke unless you’re smoking too yeah i just wanna keep the peace with you’
this girl asked what i’m listening to on camping chairs tn. showed her this song. i was thinking of u. the way she looked at me made me feel smth, n i wonder if i’m making it up. the way i did with you for months before it came true. but part of me knows it wld be nothing compared. a fun night, then we’d laugh it off and hug it out. maybe she’d kiss my cheek and tell me i looked good in more than a friend way. but what would it compare to the way you touched me for half a second? i want to move on but my body literally won’t let me.
went to brum town w my coursemates n came across the sickest group of people blasting tunes n roller skating round by symphony hall. feeling better about everything tbh. defo lost track of reality for a bit rip. still heartbroken n still miss what couldve been, but what can you do except move forward. n its abt fucking time i moved forward lmao.
