@lizdiana
trauma dump warning - today is my dad’s birthday. part of me misses him but I went no contact almost 2 years ago bc his addiction has made him cruel & unrecognizable. I had to for my wellbeing. even if I wanted to reach out, he doesn’t have a phone, or if he got a new one idk his number. the guilt of not saying happy bday will fs eat me up by the end of today. he sent me a card & money for my bday back in January but that was it. the only reason he even knows my address is bc my grandma has somewhat stayed in contact but I don’t talk to her much either bc she’s always enabled him no matter how he’s treated her. my heart aches thinking how I’ll never get my dad back. this is one of his favorite songs. he’s the one who mainly got me into classic rock so it’s hard not to think abt him when I hear a lot of songs.