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𝐌𝐢𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐞 𝐩𝐭𝟒 💌 Sometimes people conflate “love” with their own unhappiness (myself included). The “affection” they wanna give is really nothing more than an unsatiated instinct to flee — run from their problems; their wounds; some sort of reality turmoil they don’t wanna face. A part of their life they can’t reckon with. They seek a partner, a connection, a new face as to not have to look at the one in the mirror & hold their own emotions. They think they want love, but really, all they want is an excuse. Michelle wanted an excuse. A week after the party & of no-contact, she finally admitted she was just confused, & had been leaving me in the dark. I agreed & said we should just stay friends. And we have ever since; like i said really close ones in fact. Probably because of this awkward phase between us. But it was the right decision. And we both got what we wanted which was to be loved the right way by each other. For once it actually kinda had an alright ending…